From: Mermaid (hidden@lucifer.com)
Date: Mon Oct 20 2003 - 21:23:31 MDT
One of my biggest fear is being by myself in the woods. I just conquered that fear this past weekend. Well..kinda...Kalkor and I had a brief discussion on why and how we let our fears stick to us. We decided that I should take it slowly and attack the issue one little part at a time. I cant say that I was successful in diagnosing myself regarding the sources of my fear, but I told myself that I will not be afraid of walking alone in the wilderness. I spent a night alone in the woods in the midst of a whipping wind. I was awake until two in the morning because I was scared that some wild pony would chew through my tent to get to the granola bar I forgot to toss outside. I was afraid that lightning would strike when I am adjusting my rump inside the death trap called a 'tent'. I was mostly afraid that I would freeze to death because the wind chill brought down the temperature several degrees.
I cant say that I conquered my fear, but I took the first step. Who knows..I might still be scared shitless several months from now..but I am willing to find out why I am afraid. Out of that exercise came the idea of Fear Factor, CoV style.
We are all afraid of *something*. It is never as simple as it looks too. The direct result of fear is avoidance. We avoid, as much as we can, anything that would even remotely fuel the fear in us. Fear cripples us. Fear binds us. Like with the fitness boot camp, many wont feel inclined to discuss all or any of their fears on a public forum. Once again, the idea is to get it 'out of your system'. Public disclosure isnt part of it. As far as how we can go about it, I'd just welcome everyone to keep adding to this thread. Your thoughts, your fears and how you dealt with it. Maybe it will be useful to someone else. As always, give yourself a deadline. Thats all for now.
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